Why
"Everything happens for a reason" "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" "God only gives us what we can handle" Why..... I have never questioned my higher power more, in my life! I have experienced tremendous loss but, this! Dear God! I've lived through suicide, cancer (multiple times) and mental illness. My brothers are gone. My father and my uncle (beloved father figure) are both gone. No grandparents. They were taken. I grieve from time to time but the pain lessens. I have made peace with these losses. I suppose, one day after he is physically gone, I will find my peace with Randy's death. However, watching someone leave you slowly, day by day, over the span of years, is far more excruciating than sudden loss, in my opinion. Grief comes and goes, like the ebb of the ocean. While it subsides for moments, it returns like the crashing waves. Some days, I can dive a little deeper and come out the other side, unscathed. Others,